Thursday, October 20, 2016
Cloudy thoughts on a rainy day
Life is tough. This we all know. Life can be so trying at times and so hard you wonder when will everything be okay again. Then the day comes, when you start to smile and you get excited again. You greet the new day with a positive outlook and a strong cup of coffee. And you say to yourself “here we go.”
Out of devastation comes hope. You hope for hope. You learn you are so much more than what you give yourself credit for. You can be happy while inhabiting a broken heart. Not every minute of every day needs to be dwelled upon. Take a break from your heartbreak and do something you know will set your heart afire.
Recently Louie and I experienced some heart break we were not prepared for.
Within a short time frame I had to break down all the expectations I had built up so high. Life is tough you guys. Whenever I need to give myself some TLC I buy new shampoo, conditioner, body wash and pajamas. I take about 2 hot showers everyday with my new good smelling washes and relax in my comfy jammies. Sometimes if I smell certain smells back from a time period, it can take me right back to that moment. Therefore, I toss the old and start with new. New smell, new outlook. Yeah, im a little crazy but it helped.
And just when your flame seems to almost be put out – your family and friends set your life a glow. I try to be an open and honest person. I hope to receive openness and honesty from those I cherish. When my light seems to be dim I confide in others and thankfully they give me some of their light and love and sweet words and kind gestures and I begin to feel the warmth again. I thrive on others emotions – and feeling nurtured and cared for really helps me hold my head high and know a brighter day is on the horizon.
Life is tough. But so are you. Through kind words from my dear friend Fawn, which I read over and over and it helped, “it’s okay to not be okay right now.” Sometimes I get down on myself for feeling down because I do have so much to be thankful for. But it’s okay to not be okay. Time helps, love helps, wine helps and accepting other’s light helps.
Life is tough – but so are you.