Even the strongest will fall.
Part of me is constantly saying “say positive things because only then you can attract more of them” whilst the other part of me is repelling saying “just a little while (of negativity) will do”. Because even the strongest will fall, so how would it be possible for me to stay positive and all smiley every second.
Why is it so hard to be good sometimes? Especially when you recall how they treat you and probably doesn’t deserve you being nice. Yet we shouldn’t stoop down to their level, yet we too shouldn’t give them a chance to think they can step over our head and sometimes it just doesn’t feels good being nice to people when part of you questions constantly what for when they don’t deserve it.
Why is it that people closest to you are the ones who make you feel shitty the most? Especially when they just can’t understand how you are different from before and that they only thought they are right based on what they see and thought. Well that’s what they thought so. Too bad that it only tells you how much they actually don’t understand you at all. But it’s okay because I don’t want to understand them too.
Why is it so hard to open up at times? Especially when I’m already learning to express so much more than before that it actually scares me sometimes. Opening up means facing my trust issues on a certain matter. It also means I am now being slightly more straight forward than before but at the same time it makes me feel insensitive.
